Health Update

I've been battling for a couple of years with my health...and I'm still not sure what it is all about but I feel that things are getting better now.

I'd become very run down with very little energy. My thyroid was playing up and my stress levels were all over the place. To top it all off my Von Willerbrands disorder was/is hideous each month draining me (truly) each month.

The start of all this problem is unknown as I think it kind of came on gradually. But one weekend while standing at our local farmers market I lost so much blood I just about passed out. I took myself off to the doctor with a VERY fuzzy head and not able to think very well at all and basically was not listened to. I changed Doctors and then started the long process of seeing a specialist.

In between all this I quickly talked to the Haemophilia Centre and they were pointing me to see a gynecologist and get a Mirena Coil or go on the pill.

I've tried the Pill in my youth and that totally mucked up with my body and my brain. I was sent into a large depressed spin which I didn't really get out of till I met Dave and I had not been on the Pill for years by then.

After talking to the gynecologist he assured me that the Mirena Coil was the thing for me. I really was not sure as I can often have migraines and I was very depressed at the time as well. He again assured me that I would be fine.

What followed was 6 months of hell. It did fix the monthly problem it making it longer and arriving twice but it was more manageable. BUT the panic attacks were terrible....they grew bigger and bigger and my heart was racing I could hardly sleep.

I started looking around for herbal remedies and reading up on what vitamins and minerals I could take to help. I started on that track and I did feel some relief but not a lot and it still didn't help with the panic or the lack of sleep. I was also gaining weight BIG TIME!!! I'd lost interest in just about everything in my life too...I was just too tired and fed up. I also started having migraines often and these would take me out of my life for at least 2 days so I could recover.

Once past 6 months and the bleeding settled down into a long drawn out session and I thought that maybe I had lost the Mirena Coil as my brain was very fuddled. I had a check up and the Doctor couldn't find anything...so I had to have a scan...6 months later I had the scan...it was still there...I wanted it OUT!!! So 6 months laters I finally got it out.

I am really worried about how I will function as the months go on but so far I'm feeling better and better each day.

I went back to the Haemophilia Centre to be tested again to see if I could have DDAVP but my blood work did not fill the required check boxes so - No help there. I do feel a bit angry over that too...

Not one of the medical peoples I have talked to or seen but for my new Doctor has actually listened to me. I think this is a big problem. No one seems to understand that I could not leave the house or the toilet for anything more than 15mins. Not a one seemed to understand that I had really BIG problems with the Mirena Coil and I feel really fobbed off.

The next thing everyone suggests is surgery and for me I've lost all faith in anyone medical and to do something to my body that can not be revised would be just daft...I see it in so many places and situations with the medical profession.
People are given a medicine and they react to that medicine so they are given another one to help with the first one which then gives them another problem which they are given another medicine and so on and so on.
So I do not want to have any thing to do with surgery which would then require me to have medicine which puts me back in a downwards spiral.  

So where from here?
I've been taking Vitamin B, Milk thistle, Vitex, Zinc and Magnesium daily and Vitamin A, Vitamin K every so often.
I've been working with a lot of inspirational peoples like John Kabat Zinn, Esther Hicks, Louise Hay, Wayne Dyer, Dr Gabor Matea, Dr Libby and Pete Evens.
I'm trying to learn meditation which has been 5-6 years of work and I'm still only just beginning.
I'm trying to do yoga which I think is amazing but its about finding me time LOL.
We've changed our water so there is no fluoride or chlorine which I think was causing not only me problems but my DD11 too who started having a rash from the chorine.
Trying desperately hard to do healthy eating but its pretty hard....work in progress but as summer starts coming I'll be back in the garden.

Onwards and upwards    

Alice Miller

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alice_Miller_(psychologist)

At first when I started reading Alice's book I was disgusted and ended up throwing it back on the book shelf with disappointment.

Possibly it answered questions with answers that I really didn't want to hear.

Then a few months later I started reading Jon Kabit Zinn 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jon_Kabat-Zinn

I love his work.

While I've tried to work though a few of his books...I think I'm just not yet ready in some cases to take that leap forward though I really hope I can some time soon as I think he's just amazing. I think I'm on a loop which I need to sort out as every time I start to meditate I end up...argh!

But anyway... Jon referenced Alice Millers work and books.

I was like eh? But she's off the wall...so...I went back with beginners mind...Thanks to Jon.

Wow!

Talk about thinking and really getting to the heart of an issue....

These books stayed with me for a long time. Both Jon and Alice have given me clues to work with but I still needed more....

So in steps Esther Hicks.

Now I know what you'd say

Megan you've gone from one crack pot to another

Thats how I felt and I laughed to myself

But do you know what

Things have been getting better...combining so many bits of puzzle are starting to make a better life.

And Jon referenced  Esther Hicks too.

Its about life really

You can have the best work out routine but still feel rubbish, you can have the best meal plans but still feel sick and weighty, you can look into your mind your past your future but still not understand...but until you start combining it all together with many other things...

Home education

Healthy Homes

Positive relationships

Self confidence

Peace

Cleanliness

Healthy routines (not obsessed)

then life its really hard...talk about juggling woman of today (reference to a TED talk)

But thats enough rabbiting at 3am